Thursday, November 26, 2009
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just something to share to brothers and sisters in christ who pass by, esp those who have ample time now (like me)
topic: living a outreach lifestyle... awesome sermon. really blew me away.. man.
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
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there is finally a new post :)
A levels was unofficially over ytd! considering theres still bio mcq next wk :P
i think this A levels journey is less tough that what i had imagined it to be a year ago. I must have imagined the worst. apart from gp and econs, which i fear for a C, or maybe even lower, the rest were alot easier! so imagine going into say a bio paper with like acetosyringone, peptidyl transferase, beta-mercaptoethanol, phytoene synthase, etc etc in ur brain only to realise you won't have to use them. hahahah. bio vocab is crazy.
my parents were awesome supports in this period. smsing me to check if im okay, praying for
me before almost every paper. my mum says she prays at 8am sharp if she knows i have a morn paper that day.. giving me 'hi-tens' X10 in the morn, which is our practise since the psle days. stands for 100 marks btw. so cute right.
shar told me ytd that if gp get E or lower must retake the whole A levels :/ wahhh. seriously hope that doesn't happen. to J1s who are looking forward to the happy day you end A levels, hahah i think that happiness of over rated leh. im trying not to worry too much abt results (though the images of getting back the result slip comes more than just occasionally).
love spending pre-paper time with terri :) i think i will miss that! esp the day (aft gp b4 bio) that we sat on high sch terraces and blah all the bio stuff. and chem, ytd at her hse, which is like a haven of good food. terri can be a crazy worry queen at times. hahah! i know she hates it when pple give the "do-smart-ppl-like-you-have-anything-to-worry" look/comment! :P
as to how this holidays will go, i think im a little worried that it will be idled away even if i plan to make it fruitful. thats what happened to alot of my holidays:/ ironically, i think finding the balance in holidays is harder, if you get what i mean. on a sidenote, i was at the library ytd and alot of good books are on loannnnnn :(
note to self: pls buy study bible, bug cheng to lend u books, think and plan your holidays
from pastor jeff's tweet:
"When God owns our wallets, He owns our hearts as well"
my version:
"When God owns our holidays, He owns our hearts as well"
finally, the great flood at bt timah that bio students missed!
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
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my chem tutor is awesome:) mann.. shes 1 teacher im really gg to miss aft i graduate. teachers who show they care have this heartwarming effect on you :)
talking to val today helped me to understand sth abt myself-- how easy it is for me to base my walk with God on the knowledge that someone has gone through similiar struggles/ or is going through similar situations.. i dont need to wait till i find stories of victories in other people's life (as living proof) before i trust and follow what the bible says... cos it might just be too late. and definitely not enough- who on earth goes through the EXACT same situation as you?? (then, by logical thinking, you can give a thousand and 1 reasons why someone's breakthrough in a rather similar situation doesnt apply to you..)
and well, i guess thats sth worth being thankful for as well, that my journey with God is a special one :)
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
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just finding it funny, yes im laughing at myself. funny how i keep telling myself to keep steady, dont tire, dont forget God, dont stress. but i realise its harder than i thought. and all that i didnt want to do, think, feel, STILL happened anw.. lol. calean you are noob, you suck la.
past few days..
lost phone, got phone back, didnt bring specs, didnt bring phone,
getting back results.. and today, the most happening morn for a long time
God must have known how unperfect I am. i may find little joys in doing the things i like, eating the things i like, being with the people i like. but the end of all.. I'm still so grateful that ive You :) Thanks for loving noob calean and thinking the world of her, even when shes being sian abt everything.
on a random note, playing captains ball with oac was :))). probably cos ive havent been exercising AND really enjoying it for a long while. im still having muscle aches..
and terri chiong if ure reading this.. i love you dear friend and will be praying for you :)
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
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sometimes its not THAT hard.. i just got to remember who God is. and love Him. love all He has created me to be, love His family, His church.
i hate it that im so inward looking. its like knowing that i am filling some bottomless pit and i still willingly do it :/ tell me is this stupidity or what. arghhhhh
okay at least im aware. keep refocusing, and keep fighting on!
and i just got to reblog this- from fung's bog!
"every time it comes, i close my eyes. tell myself, ‘everything’s going to be alright’. don’t dwell, don’t wallow, don’t give in. keep fighting, keep hoping. i’ve got Jesus with me."
love your stubborness. and courage :)..
its a race worth running, a cause worth living :) and yes, worth to keep denying myself. best is, we never run alone :).
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009
♥ besides the studying
on sun i decided to go for hccg reunion with the j3s :)! was the only j2 there. hahaha. i understand the rest cant come, anw i kind of sneaked out by saying im studying outside- which i did in the morn at smu. the morn weather was super nice then i still rmb. nice and cold from the rain. the reunion the the last time im seeing yuhui for a long while since shes flying off the france! being w the j3s really brought back the familiarity. like how liping is always the target for being bullied! hahah!
today i was studying bio, randomly decided to pick this book out the shelf "ABC's of the human body" by reader's digest. initial motive was the look for nice pictures so i can visualise better :P. but i ended up reading nearly the entire book cos its really really interesting! not very cheem. hahah which is good, less academic. :) lots and lots of pictures! love bio. .. covered quite a few topics for bio today- org of euk genome, photosynthesis, cellular respiration, endocrine. i realise explaining aloud to myself helps :D
im trying to bring interest into my studying.. so far all is working fine but gp(which is over, for prelims) and econs. grrr econs. doesnt help that my mum keeps reminding me to study it since its my mon paper and partly cos she sees the huge prelim papers for econs stack lying in the table, untouched ://.
anw. you know you know.. each time i read any medical related/human body related stuff and it captures me, i feel like im heading the right way.. in wanting to become a doctor. regardless of how.. bad my grades are. ahah. i know i tell myself that if it is God's plan, it will be so.. and out of the dunno how many hundreds of people eyeing for the 250 places in nus med sch, perhaps i stand a chance. you know.. maybe my grades can hit the mark.. maybe cos of this interest i can convince the interviewers.. blah blah blah. sigh. but confident of this goal? im really not. i dont even dare to express it out much to many people, the concerns and whatever. cos i just dont want to hear too much of qns like "you sure about it?" or qns along those lines. lol. or maybe i just dont want to see any body language that is less than affirmative... the doubts that can come in are just too many.
well i just have this small little hope, and im still praying abt it and waiting.
tmr is wed. would be studying with the unit people.. wonder whos gonna be there!
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God in my thinking,
God in my blogging,
God in my studying,
God in my weakness
God in my strength,
God in the things that i cant stand doing
God in the people i love
God in the nature He created
God in my fears
Be my everything :)..
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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Exodus 4: 11 The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
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