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phew. LTC is finally over! :D yay yay. finally can really REST. these two weeks is like MADNESS. mang mang lu lu. 2 sessions of tent-pitching down, 3 more to go! I must tell myself to fall in love with ridge tents. Man. PGA is probably worst than preparing for annual camp. but at least we are halfway there le! thanks to the underfivers and ms teng for the cards/jiayous etc etc :)

today i ic-ed outdoor cooking. it was relatively easy considering that its sec3s, but its the first time ever i ic-ed outdoor cooking! quite happy :D. miss doing outdoor cooking!

Im supposed to be doing some overdue hmwrk now but im really very stoned :/. maybe thats why im here aft a long long time :) aft being so busy on guides. whole day nth but guides guides guides. its time to start focusing on other stuff. like hmwrk. like church!

this fri wld be the FIRST EVER CENTRAL SERVICE!!! WHOA. so cool to have a very own svc at NEXUS as a district! look forward to it. I really cant wait for the nxt praise and worship! i realise that i connect to God very well during praise and worship. usually. both public and at hme. :) the feeling of God's presence just cmng there and then is super super good! :D ahhh.
oh. but tt means that i will be missing class dinner :/. hmm. nvm. i mean. What cld be a better place than to be at nexus on fri night for central svc?!?! (common quote frm the chairing ppl). i dun mind bringing 407 dwn lah! hahah

tmr is public hols. going out w my family to watch movie and celeb my sis bday. den aftn got games mtg for camp. i shall wake up early to do my work :)

sigh. in the upcoming week i must start spending more time w ppl. CGs. shepherdings. lunches :). there WFL. even QT. i think ive been dating the computer for too long alrdy.

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Oh yah! almost forgot. i wanted to share a song that i have been clicking the replay button dunno how many times alrdy. :)
http://cuteplant23.imeem.com/music/5x7c15-d/never_let_me_go/

You pick me up
When i am down
And on my own

You hold my hand
And lead me on
Into your plan

Whenever i cry out you hear me
Whenever i fall down you hold me

Hold me never let me go
Change me I want the world to know
You are living in me
God i know you'll never let me go

I want to live
For you my God
You are my all

God help me stand
For you each day
And be your voice

Whenever i cry out you hear me
Whenever i fall down you hold me
Whenever i stand up you're with me
I know your spirit's living in me


Hold me, Jesus never let me go
Hold me, hold me

lyrics:
http://www.lyricstime.com/planet-shakers-never-let-me-go-lyrics.html

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hello! i shall do a short update. hmm the wkend was rather busy-- but busy doing other stuff! i didnt even touch any hmwrk this wkend :/ hahah oh well nth is due tmr at least.

SATURDAY

firstly, church service. I left right after sermon, felt abit weird and incomplete :/ Praise and worship was great great great! :)

then i went for the pga Pno mtg. the theme we came out for our camp was iPromise (pronounced as eye-promise) after the guide law. Hahah the mtg went fine except that aft the mtg i could feel the immense amount of workload cmng my way. jiayou PNO-ers! we-can we-must we-shall and we-should do it! hahaha (those are patrol names btw :) )

Went back for central seed mtg :) i thought i was going to walk in halfway thru the teaching but thank God i wasnt too late!

The teachings on saturday both during svc and central seed mtg let me see that i can always learn from lessons that were done before. Cos the word of God and God's principles need to be taught taught and drilled before any of them gets put into practice in our lives.

For me, i know i desperately need to steward my time better. Which means not to love sleep and slacking away so much. Or in fact to love slacking so much that i delay my work and compromise sleep and get tired the nxt day!

Man, God has so so much for me! I must must must manage my time better so i can do more for Him if not i will look back and hou4 hui3!

i rmb a thought that hit me ytd: Whats makes you happy?
its true that humans we are happy when we get we want
(e.g we wanted 90% in a test and we gt 90% we will be happy. but if we got 85%, though it's good, we wouldnt be happy cos thats human nature!)
But what abt when we get what GOD wants? will we choose to put aside what we want to pursue what God wants?
Thats why its so important to share God's heartbeat. If you love someone, you will value what he values :) What we want will be what God wants. Whats God wants will surely be a thousand times better!

just a random thought. :)

SUNDAY (today)
MOTHER'S DAY!

woke up late since i slept late the night before. spent the morning doing guides stuff then chiong to go adele's hse to practise the LA play. :)

rest of the day was family time. I do love my family... but feel quite bad for always not putting aside enough time to spend with them.

okay thats abt all! i shld get off the comp soon. I will not be blogging/reading blogs this wk since its a mega-time spender that always get out of control! yupp. okay byebye! :D

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SATURDAY NIGHT :)

I shall dedicate this firstly to people out there who are still having exams! (particularly smss, sherlyn, claire, justine(?) of central A) wonder who will read this.

(haha, my sister who is like beside me wants me to dedicate to her also)

okay lah. You all must JIAYOU KAYS!! AJA AJA jiayou! (new catch phase my sister hit me for not knowing :/)

please lah. i tell you. so far hor i nver watch wang zi bian qing wa,(gt watch da chang jin), goong, hana kimi. the last time i watched a movie was like ermm.. happy feet! hahaha beat that! oh i didnt watch phantom of the opera also. heheh. i have other sources of entertainment ;) esp reading blogs even though i cant rmb when was the last time i tagged. yup

to nanyang ppl who dun have exams. YAYYYYY. hahah



svc was great today! God spoke to me very strongly this morn/aftn when i was having qt.
its scary how we lose sight of what is most foundamental. reminds me of the many many areas i still need to grow in. The answer to sme qns ive been facing recently is actually far simpler than i thought it would be. I will share more during cg ba :)

ps shirley was right in saying that its been a long time talking about breaking the 1000 target. for nanyang i rmb we had the goal of 20 last time (or more accurately it was written as '20!'). haha i still rmb.

what can i say?
dare to ask and God dares to give.
personally had a mini breakthru in this area today.


ahhh. really look forward to church camp man. it is one month away! FIRST FRONTIER CAMP'07 :D
June this year will be busy and exciting :)

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♥ saturday :)

hello! its a saturday morning :D yay
chi exam was officially over ytd! it was okay ba. ohh aft the exam many people started falling sick! yuqin aileen beni mel goh etc etc and lifern. :( take care! hahah i've been trying to abstain from heaty food so that my throat wont worsen.. maybe shouldn't have ate too many cookies on thurs during mother's day baking. sigh. the many many things in my hse i cant eat now!
- leftover cookies in my bag (thanks to sia vic !:D)
- oreo cookies
- m and m's
- van houten choc
- famous amos cookies
- coco pop cereal
- love letters strawberry kind
- peanut butter

OH MAN. very tempted. ahhh.

saturday! I look forward to svc later :D

this week is quite different. very short week. cg was at island creamery. then we went over to macs to eat fries. we came tgt talking abt the community in ny. we really need to do sth abt this ageing populatn..

sometimes i nt sure if it just me. i do fear goals. esp goals that cannot be met at the end. or goals that were set and actions dont follow. the list that we made on the spot at macs were lives that we are planning to sow on. how come its always so easy to plan, write down but so difficult to go out there and make that difference in their life? aft writing we suddenly realised that it was all sec3s and 4s..

need a breakthru in outreach. I think God must be pretty irritated w me for struggling in this area for so long!

Tags:
Hi jiawen mila and meiting!! :D you guys are pretty observant of msn nicks. hahah

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♥ First post

hello! after a loooong time i've decided to open a blog. first post!

Todays is Labour Day aka 1st May. My parents' wedding anniversary too. haha. both of them went out to catch a movie, spiderman 3. leaving me and my sis at hme. enjoying their ER REN SHI JIE ba.

MY PARENTS. i think they look really sweet here.

Honestly they can be quite a cute couple at times. I like the times when they childishly bicker among themselves in front of me and my sis. my mum will pretend to kick my dad and my dad 'punches' her back -_-. they did that once in the lift somemore! hahah. so cute lah. though they are very different as individuals and sometimes it can be REALLY hard communicating w them but I still love them a lot! Hmm I just realised that I tend to push them into the background. in fact i cant rmb the last time i actl prayed for them (taking them for granted?). I hope that even though we arent in the same church ministry and all we will still cont' to serve God as much! love my dear parents. :)

Saturday was my shep's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINNIE! its belated. I've a lot of things abt her that im really thankful for. Thank you for being a leader that is always THERE. For being ahmah and adding so much joy since from the start where central A was born. I still rmb AH TAY and the pooling of $ to take central A neoprint! :) those times w you were like confirm confirm can laugh until stomache!

Thank you for giving so much to central A. Not just the whole group but inspiring individuals- each and every one of our lives as well. Thank you for all the blood sweat tears and perservering on despite of circumstances. Rmbering that you will nver give up on the grp is always encouraging. (Since winnie didnt give up, why shld i? :)) There are so many things i can learn from you.

winnie is my shep for arnd 2 weeks! short time but she taught me a lot :) Loved that time where we sat in coro talking for 2 hours sharing things i dont i think ive shared to anyone b4. Thank you for mtg me even though you are very busy. fitting your schedule into mine. thank you! Love you shep. and i know this God-centred relationship will cont' to grow :)

thats my shep on the extreme left. and me on the extreme right with central A ppl who went for huang cheng kiaped in the middle. haha that includes my ex-shep too. (KELLY! nver see you lip cam or tifen at CSM :( )

Worship was great on saturday. The msg that God spoke however was blur blur de.

For you remain the same, king of kings.

You are the voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
When there seems to be no way,
You made it possible.

I was reminded of the lives that slipped past.. or more specifically the lives right beside me that chose to stop walking w God. first thing i thought: WHY WHY WHY. for some of these ppl i even blamed myself. I cld have done more. next thing i thought: HOW?

so how?

Yesterday today forever Jesus is the same
All may change but Jesus never
Glory to his name

I praise God cos He is the same God I knew from the start. He is not some hypocrite that fail to do what He preach. and promises He made/said 2000 years ago are still kept even today.

Love God, love people. Loving God is not easy... loving people is even harder.

(pardon my typo errors. i lazy to check)

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